That feeling...

I lay in my bed starring at the ceiling, sifting through my thoughts. All the worries popping up like giant bubbles, swirling around me. Can’t seem to find an answer to solution and I feel anxiety creeping up on me. I decide to close my eyes and take 10 deep breaths, letting go of the thoughts for a moment. Since I’m so desperate to get away from anxiety -my breaths are extremely deep and I take them very slow. By the time I get to 10 I feel very relaxed and like I’m floating, that might be the effect of hyperventilation but it feels good. I feel like I have been lifted of the bed and I’m floating in a warm bubble of comfort. My body feels like it’s buzzing and I feel a warm sensation going through my body, there’s no thoughts, I’m just there. I imagine colors to see what color sticks to me the most- and the only color that keeps showing up is purplish –pink with green edges. It’s like looking through a beautiful crystal at the sunlight. This beautiful light gives me positive feeling, and I notice myself smiling. I open my eyes and in the dark I see for a glimpse second that color softly fade away on the wall in front of me. Did I just dream this, did it really happen, was this the beautiful energy of a spirit that came to help me? Without too much thinking I turn over and go to sleep. Falling into deep sleep, feeling my body very heavy and no thoughts of worry- I just feel at total peace. Whatever it was- it was amazing, it feels great to feel blissful and peaceful even for a moment- we don’t get to feel it very often with our everyday demanding life.

Julia Sh

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